ENJOY THE FEELING

When I started writing my post for this new year I hit a little bit of a wall to be honest. Everything I tried writing was basically coming down to ‘The Struggle is Real’. And I’m sure the struggle is quite real for a lot of people, like the holiday was to short, you’re running a bit low on cash because December time we run around sprinkling money everywhere like fairy dust or whatever you are facing coming into 2018. But I decided that I am going to start the year off positive, still real, but positive.

So let’s just get one thing out the way… THE HOLIDAY WAS WAAAAY TO SHORT! I feel like I’m still in shock coming back into season. But we will be ok.

One of the main things I realized in 2017 was that I was still trying to figure out how to do this whole modelling thing without stressing out about it. I know it probably sounds silly, but as some of you may know from reading my first post, there is no consistency in this job. Some days you get a call at 11am to go see a client at 11am. You just have to learn to be realistic about the situation, so if your agent asks can you go see the client now, just be real and say how long it might take you to get there. They have to understand, we are only human after all.

One day, last year (2017), my boyfriend and I decided to have a bit of a spa day. We both had the day off so we booked ourselves in for a massage. Just as we were finishing up at reception, luckily after our treatments were done, I got a call from my agent that a client wanted to see me and I need to get there asap. Now I normally don’t mind doing this as it is part of the job but on this day I have just come out of a massage. Apart from the fact that I’m just coming out of a relaxed environment now having to rush, I didn’t have any make-up on, my hair was an absolute mess because of the oils they used and I was wearing the most relaxed and comfy clothing as possible. Any way there was no time to change; we had to rush through to go see this client as the shoot was the next day. As I got to the address they asked me to do a casting outside the building, basically in the parking lot. And yes, there were people who stopped to watch. I had to pretend I was in a car having the time of my life drinking this amazing beverage. They wanted me to laugh and scream and go crazy (with my walk in and out audience ofcourse). After that they wanted me to try on some clothes and then they told me that I could go, but keep my phone close as they might ask me to come in again. So my boyfriend and I went back to his place in Muizenberg. Probably an hour after I got there they phoned me to go back in, the address was in Woodstock btw. As I got back they asked me to wait a few minutes (like they always do). After the wait they put me in a few different outfits finally to decide that they liked the very first one I tried on. They took some photos and then I got sent home again. At this point I was still not sure if I have booked the job or not. I only got a call 9pm that evening to tell me my call time is 3am the next morning. The day of the shoot was a long one in the heat and wind. It was a lot longer than a 10 hour day. We only got back to town at 10pm that evening.

The job was for Coca-Cola. It happened completely out of the blue and I was blessed to get the part I did in the way I did. My point in all of this is that life happens. We sometimes stress out about what we don’t know. We try figure out every step of the way and then at the end of it life changed the whole layout.

I came into 2018 quite unsure of a lot of things. I still feel like there are things in my life that are a mess and I really don’t know how to fix it. But I came to realize that you don’t have to. Sometimes our biggest New Year’s Resolution should be to not try figure this year out. Maybe it’s time to let go of all the fears you have about things you’re uncertain about and just go for it. Stop trying to figure it all out and just enjoy what life is offering you right now.

Ironically the name of the Coca-Cola campaign was “Eyes Closed” and the campaign promoted that ‘it feels better with your eyes closed’. With life and new beginnings we tend to keep our eyes wide open to see what will happened. But I just had a feeling for 2018 it might better sometimes to feel the new experience with your eyes closed, meaning not looking for answers constantly or not being aware of every single little change. But allowing yourself to enjoy the feeling of little victories or small changes or big successes.

Happy New Year! May 2018 be your best enjoyed year yet!